This headache is killing me. The only thing i could do now is to fold more papers. So I will just do that, because there's really nothing else i can do. The one who always hold my hands to school, the one that i used to sleep with when i was young, the one who always buy me icecream, the one who i am supposed to visit ytd. Life is unpredictable. I feel very tired, but I just can't fall asleep.. And my head is killing me. Gah.


I could still rmb how hard i cried the other time when my aunt left. And that time, S and T were all along there for me. There isn't any moment i feel that i am alone. Because i know i still got them. But it still hurt alot then.

This time, i guess its 6th sense. Right from the morning, my mom said "Dont regret this" Her first phone call i already knew what's coming. I go into silence because i am afraid it is all falling on me again. The second phone call came and i knew its D-day. It's just a matter of whether i will be too late or not. I was late. Too late. The moment i saw my uncle, i knew i was late. His eyes were red. Even without going into the ward, i knew what had happened. I saw her lying there, peacefully. I broke down. She looked like she is just sleeping like usual but the tears in everyone's eyes tells me something is wrong. I stared to look for signs, signs that she still could be breathing. I stared and i stared, everything still remained still. Alot of thoughts ran through my head..

I thought of S and T..

I was thinking if she wanted to see me before she left. I was thinking if she will feel sad not seeing me. I was thinking, that i haven't told her that i got my scholarship and that she dont need worry because i will study hard and i will grow up to become a very good person, i haven't tell her that i really appreciate her for bringing me up, and being in my life and taking care of me since i was young. Somehow.... I dont know. Maybe i just feel numb. Maybe i just dont feel anything.

But i am fine. yea. guess i am stronger now.

I am fine.

Good luck for GP kay :)





For an update, I passed my moe interview, i got my teaching award :D Yay.

And i misss some friends. I miss you all. Yay no more relief teaching, i hope i can meet up with you all soon!


Okay today is the most important day of my life. OMG, i am convincing myself that I am prepared. I am prepared! Its my most important step into my teaching career. OMG. I feel so tired. But I can't be. And omg, later after that i need to like distress. I need to go back ny and play ball play ball. I wanna be a teacher, because it is in my blood. =.=

WISH ME LUCK.

Why i want to be a teacher? cos i like to be called ms yuen. HAHAHAHHA okay no la. I feel weird when people call ms yuen. But well, i think its kind of used to it liaoz. HAHAHA


Seriously, my name is now BURDEN YUEN. Lol. Okay great, I dont know why the songs on my comp are just playing emo mama songs like, like a knife, always be my baby now... Sheesh. Lol. Seriously chasing pavements is not bad. I wonder when will my break come. Haha, i need time to accept uni and prepare for interview. Omg, so scary, why always when I am doing rt, then alot of such stuffs will come. And i dont know why the stupid nus doesnt let me accept it ):

Haha, i am gonna like exercise exercise and control my diet so that i can lose all the weight that i gained these few months. I am seriously like fat, like what the hell. Okay. Seriously i haven't been spending time catching up with my friends :S Sorry. I am like busy everyday sia. Wake up super early and coming home at around 10plus. Too tired to initiate smses and sometimes to reply msges.

Aiyo, i gtg alr. Come back again. WO HAO LEI ORH. Going to sleep liaoz.


Tmr and sunday gonna be super packed. Actually all my weekends vey packed. Cos of tuition stuffs. Okay I think I have to head down to queensway tmr to exchange stuff then quickly chiong to tuition liaoz. Okay, so other than my hair, life is still happy :D

I just played wii and i made my cute seniors laugh like shit. HAHAHA oh and i am not going to try that bitter chips again, it suck. Hahaha. I tried goodwood park durian puffs :D I kinda of miss my team mates, i miss my hair. I miss playing basketball. I am going to watch tv alr.

Mayday parade is kinda nice.


Don't talk to me, I am currently at my down-est period of my life. I wanna cry already la, my hair. Walau. I will never go back to that evil place anymore.