stupid lo..
when did i never..?
ok i noe i dread to..
but i am force to go..
because of u lo..
always control me..
why?
this is none of ur business k..
and this isn't the first time..
making decisions without asking pple is a good choice eh..
u always think u yourself so big..
do u have nothing better to do..
than to control me..
i hate this lo..
stupid..
and plz think wat u say b4 u say smth..
being liddat..
u are no difference to Ms Tan at all..
talk without going thru ur brain..

something also..
ytd i dreamt of the freak..
was so stupid can..
dream abt being back again..
den suddenly wake up..
den i dunno why so happy..
but when 6am i wake up den rethink..
was stupid can..
why wud i be happy..
i shud not be happy..
stupid..
what is my brain thinking...
oh goshh...
i hate freak!!...

this few weeks why keep apppearing in front of me..
i dun wish to see u..
i really dun..
and u too..
get away and stop controlling me..
i am giving u face lo..
a person has his limits can..

went mac eat lunch after eng ssp..
den jo called to said she forget her geog books...
hahahz.
blur..
den kex and grace go back sch take..
at first me and char didn't follow..
den in the took 105 stop at sch bus stop and waited for them to come out..
went jo house..
hahz...
played with the hamster..
hahaz..
i liked it when it shoved and shake its body..
hahz..
so cute..
and all fat fat.. chubby chubby der..
very cute can..
hahz..
den i was like throwing it and hopping it..
hopes its ok..
hahz..
it also da bian in my hand and kex..
hahz..
jo said it will da bian if it's scared..
hhaz..
mayb i scareded it liaoz bahz..
left first..
eh 9pm show starting soon bahz..

dreadful day tml..
haiz..
at least my day was made better thanks to..
xiao chipmunk, grace , kex.. and elaine..
hahhaz..
and anna too with the new 5566 song..
not bad eh..

shi jie shang zui mei de feng jing ..

hahaz..

to me..
going to it.. it's really the most dreadful thing...
although ytd was a breeze..
but its stressful...
even if i gave my best..
is my effort= results....
not really..
"faking hardworking".. is wat u say..
then wat makes me wana work hard..
i cant seem to find the pushing force..
this friday will be the last time b4 everythinng ends.
argh..
please give me the pushing force for me to move on..
i wanna do well..
i wanna achieve my aim..
i wann.. but can i make it?

on the other hand..
this few days are quite ok la.
i am happy...
heeheez..

a lot of times..
we dun treasure things around us..
till we start to lose them..
its quite true bahz..

heys..
lets work hard for the EOYs..
wah ..
its really very near..
jiayous..
we can do it together!!

after school went library to do hmwk..
whoot!..
i find myself so guai can..
i nv was so guai last time..
found i am quite hardworking this yr..
i did hmwk by myself..
ahhahhaz..
with some help of grace..
and kex's calculator too..
hahaz..

went to the N&B after that..
wah seh..
when i reach home guess wat i eat?
Delifrance..
stupid..
almost same as n&b..
den is like repeating eating the same thing..
wah now i am scared of eating that liaoz..
mayb now if go N&B eat tau huay only..
hahhaz..

hey i like kex phrase..
"its not the name.. its the thing behind it..."
wah.. so meaningfull..
so nice..
hahaz..

den she scolded me for being forgetful..
i left the cd-rom in the comp. and left the IT room..
made yuhan and mich to stay back and search for it..
sorry ah..
thanks also..
hahz..

ok that was lame la..
went mac after school..
went there to have lunch..
den talk for so long can..
hahaz..
i was thinking wat to blog in mac..
but no need thiink..
i noe wat to write liaoz..
hahaz..
lolx

at six.. went to interchange to take 105..
then it started to rain slightly..
kexin went off..
ahahz..
spent the time talking to khun ying and xinyi...
hahz.. didn''t noe they were so fun to talk to..
hahz..
so funny..
then in the end when i board off the bus..
it was raining like there's no tml lo..
and there's lightning and thunder..
argh... ok i was indeed scared lo..
i had to run a long way home..
and i was so scared i kanna the lightning strike..
hahhaz..
that was my fear at that time..
hahz..
then guess wat i saw when i reach under my block..
i saw my mother and father...
with umbrella!!..
they was waiting for my aunty la..
but too late la..
was already drenched from head to toe already la..
when i reach home..
i was still dripping water lo..
hahhz..
can get the feeling of a luo tang ji liaoz..
hahz..
stupid kex..
hahz..
put my stupid pic so big..
hahaz..
happy day bahz..
hahaz..
u all rocks..
now 9pm..
show starting..
byes...


DERRICK ROCKS!!

hahaz..
i like miic blog..
now i find jy better and better liaoz..
and like him more..
but derrick is still the best..
hahha..
tml sch reopens..
ooh..
there's pros and cons la..
hahaz..
but think of the bright side..
u can meet ur friends..
friends that will bring u joy..
happiness..
mayb this is a good point abt sch..

seven, eight or nine doesn't matters..
what matters is the heart is there..
always there..
not being close isn't the issue..
at least everyone cares for each other..
at least.. somebody will noticed it..
when a problem surface but nobody notices it...
this is then a bigger problem..
so just live the way it is now..
stay happy..
enjoy..
and ROCK on..

also i wan some extra time to be with em..
but if i wan improve..
everyday i must stay back to practise..
and improve..
and reach my goal..
i dunno..

playing in a sports hall..
with so much pple to support..
has always been my dream..
do i wan it to continue being a dream..
or i wan it to turn into reality..

sometimes i really feel dui bu qi to coach..
he treat us so nice..
but i still sometimes dun like training..
but i am just tired..
training is really tough..
to me..
sometimes.. i really wanna work hard..
but i dunno..

at the back of my mind..
there is a pulling force..
a force to keep me from advancing..
a force that make me wanna back out..
plz gimme an answer...
wat shud i do..
to back out..?
to advance..
but i really hope to make my dream come to reality..
however..
this pulling force seems so strong..
that it is pulling me backwards....

went tpy stadium and beach..
was fun la..
stadium was a bit obvious s'pore will win..
so quite boring..
but also quite nice la..
got air-con..
den can rest..
hahaz..
was in like a haven wake up mood..
den the hk supporters so loud..
nearly wanted to throw things at them..
budden.. hahaz..
i am a civilised person..
diaoz..

life isn't boring..
never boring...
even they are the things i dun really enjoy..
but bcos you all are beside..
i nv feel the sian-ess...
mayb i am cold blooded..
hhaz..
life just rock..
with you all nearby...
everything is fine...
except... xxxxxxxxxxxx
i really dun like it..
sometimes i feel a bit bad..
but i dunno...

D.E.R.R.I.C.K rocks...
hahaz..
u are my idol....
i am happy...
bcos of everything...
thanksz....
c.i.

hahahz... today's training..
we did gym..
5 sets!!..
almost took 2 hrs to complete it sia..
tml sure ache till siao..
was tossing coin in the morning..

ok tml will not be going..
malaysia is a nice place..
a place for shoppers...
and also a food paradise..
i like.. city square..
so many things there...
hahahz.. say till i excited sia..

he going ns tml liaoz.. jiayouz derrick!!
i really think derrick rocks lo..
the web is sooo nice!!..
omg..
i love it..
hahz..
DERRICK ROCKS!

haha.. today went for eng ssp..
nasi was late.. came like abt 15 mins late..
hahaz.. instead she let us off earlier 15 mins also..
den was like so nice..
went mac to eat..
had a sauage egg muffin meal..
ooh.. i like milo..
nice...

for the most stupid issue agn..
thinking whether i shud go..
pple like kex and miic recommend that i shud..
and i think i shall go bahz..
ok decided..
go bahz.. no choice also..
this was my choice during sec 1...
mayb this is not a bad choice..
but i am a lazy person la...
cannot blame..
den becum so fat liaoz..
no energy move..
lol..

kaes.. hahaz..
now listening this song "We believe"
by good charlotte..
think is nice la..
but i think quite holy lidddat..
hahahz..
we believe.. we believe.. we believe...

ya nearly forget.. saw this two chipmunks.. In this shop today.. was so cute can? chipmunks rocks can.. derrick also = chipmunk... cos cute ma.. hahaz.. derrick rocks too!

one word to describee...
you, you, you, you, you, you, you and you
ROCKS..
everyone of u all rock my world..
make my world turn round and round..
make me have the energy to go on..
even when i am in my saddest and hopless moments..
everyone of u are my mental stength to go on..
rock on..

Tuesday, September 06, 2005 Y 9:24 PM

i agree..
totally agree...
like wad the small chipmunk said..
if given any second chance
to choose a secondary sch...
i think i will still choose zhss..
this is not because i love this sch..
or its ways of controlling the students..
but is because of the pple u find here...
C.I.
Bball..
2e6'o4 (esp. anna..)
3e3'05...(esp. michelle chia and sihui)..
these are the people that made life better of for me..
they made me understand wat is happiness..
they brightens up my day...
they make me look forward to school..
and it is because of them..
each day..
i becum a better person..
*p.s. heheh.. i hope i am...

hhaz.. today training good..
better than i have expected..
hahz..
overall today was a great day..
i hope everyday can be liddat...
to be so free of fan naos..
and be happy..
just purely happy..
nv even to think of anything..
if everyday can be liddat..
there is nothing more that i can expect liaoz..
this kind of life is wat i always wished for..
but it wud be a better day if all of u all were present...
lthis is all that i want in life..
all this will be sufficient..
blissful day indeed..

** i wished for everybody's happiness **
** i wished that life is just purely liddat....

Monday, September 05, 2005 Y 9:33 PM

hmm...
yeah almost done with hmwk..
just left english..
a maths that circular measure part..
then physics section c and 2 question in section b..
and yeah that's it..
i am done..
hahaz..
so happy now..
cos my work load is like lighten so much...
i didn't noe..
doing hmwk is also fun..
this is the first time i did my hmwk..
SERIOUSLY..
and SO MUCH..

hahz...
feel so proud of myself can...
i am so great...
i did hmwk!!..
so proud of myself...

ooh.. sadly..
training falls in tml..
8am..
seh..
missed all my precious sleep..
nvm..
exercise diaoz my fats...
i am fat liaoz..
VERY...
EXTREMELY...
omg...

hahz..
er...
wednesday can go out le ma??....
i missed all the fun..
i wan play like mad....

Y 3:45 PM

Herbie...!!

hahz.. herbie is cute..!..

Y 3:39 PM

.........
heys heys..
can u all plz enlighten me..
wat is that u all are faning abt now..
all ur blogs seems so sad..
and chim...
overly-expressed in some weird language?
that i can't understand it at all..
if being sad and constantly brooding over the fan naos..
over and over again..
can help u all to becum happy..
is a good thing..

at least u might find a solution to it..
but if u all just keep brooding over it..
and becums more fan and sad..
Den STOP faning!..
cos this is not going to help..
if a person can choose btw fan and being happy..
why not be happy..?
it will make ur mood becum better..
and being fan will not solve ur probs anyway..
so be happy la..
sharing is also good ma..
i will be most willing to hear..
but if u remain is silent den remain sad and fan..
do u think ur frenz that care abt u wil be happy too..?
i dun think so..
they will be concerned abt u and wan to help u..
so why dun u share it..
and perhaps, ur fenz can help u?
if not...
by telling it all to ur fren..
is also a better choice..
cos they can give u great advices on the issue..
two heads are better than one la..
so dun keep everything to urselves..
say it out..
esp. CI..etc
i have a question...
wat are u all faning?
why so sad liddat...
no matter wat..
u all can contact me...
anytime...
anywhere..
i'll be there..
no matter wat....
but plz dun be unhappy..

ok right.. everybody has their troubles..
but if u wish to find somebody to talk to...
i am always here..
right here..

BE HAPPY!!

Saturday, September 03, 2005 Y 1:11 PM

hahaz..
quite bo liaoz now..
sian also..

quite sian..
tml going malaysia..
actually i didn't noe abt it..
till today...
diaowz right..
but that's true..
haiyo..
sian...
wished someone or somebody..
will come up with a great idea..
on wat to do..
to kill this boredom..

actually i wanna noe..
am i thinking tooo much..
OR..
is it all a coax..
why can't i becum happy agn..
have i already lost myslef..
or am i just lost for the moment..
actually..
i see no difference at all..
last time and now..
isn't it the same..

really missed u all now..
unable to see thru ur minds..
i really wished i cud..
then i wud be able to share ur troubles..
but i'll promise..
i am always there..


i wished to be happy..
happy..
and last of all..
HAPPY yet again..

am i useless..
i got this feeling..
something is wrong..
wrong..?
i dunno wat is it...
mayb i shud leave...
but can i let go..
i dun think so..

t.r.e.a.s.u.r.e.

c.i. r.o.c.k.s.

Friday, September 02, 2005 Y 9:37 PM

Maybe now..
the reason of my happiness..
comes from u all..
this is wat i think bahz..
even if i am very unhappy..
the sight of u all will make me smile..
of cos u all muz be happy too la..
seeing u all happy..
really makes my day..
cos i think now all my fan naos are sort of lessen..
i guessed..
i really hope to see that u all..
everyone of u are happy..
and i mean real happy..
only then.. i guessed i will be happy..

however.. sometimes..
i really feel i dun belong..
i got this..
stupid thought today..
while waiting for coach to come..
i wanted to let go..
to let everything go..
and disappear...
was kind of feeling down at that moment bahz..
duno why..
but truthfully...
i wished C.I to be happy..
really....
SMILING ISN'T THAT DIFFICULT BAHZ?
i guessed..

some where i belong..
where is it..
plz show me the way...

-lost..

Thursday, September 01, 2005 Y 5:30 PM

Haha.. thanks pals...
u all just rock my world can..
paiseh..
yesterday i was mad bahz..
small chipmunk.
so touched by ur words lol..
see ur msg le..
make me feel a lot better..
then i was not so angry liaoz..
cos i noe of ur presence..
that u will always be there..
thanks..

hahz..
ehs..
er..
muz be too mad ytd..
hahaz..
today morning wake up..
my mother was like a bit guilty or wat..
she was like "when did i ever scold u when u come home early?"
cos ytd i yell..
"even when i come home early..
also makes no difference..
cos u still scolds..
so wat's the point..?"
hahaz..
muz be mad right..
so she tell me..
my father ytd say her..
always anyhow scold me..
den make me dun wan come home..
haahaz..
stupid lol..
but i only very playful ma...
wan more time for playing..
so end up go home later lol..
hahaz..
den in the end my ma brought me eat sakae sushi ..
and brought me see mp3 player..
i want the new one..
but cost $299..
hahaz.

To my brother..
stop being so proud or mayb is too overcofident of urself..
u are not great u noe..
noe why i dun like going back to pri sch..
whenever i goes back..
pple come to complain to me abt u..
YOU..
complain to me abt ur everything..
ur teacher...
ur friends...
even this yr..
i nv go back...
i met some of the pri sch frenz outside unexpectedly..
noe wat they say..
plz teach ur brother a bit...
see what i mean?
sometimes....
u just get on my nerves and i may explode soon..
u are too overbearing liaoz..
so learn and control..
is for ur own good...
u dun wan all ur frenz to stray from u..
bcos of ur attitude..
if u dun wan..
is also none of my business..
so u better reflect bahz..

hahs.. now being very happy..
i am really contended with my life now..
especially the part on FRIENDS..
shud b bahz..
hahaz..
C.I, tingying, elaine..
and michelle chia and shihui that brightens up my lesson time..
hahz.. so wanna thank all of u..
i love u all..

hmmz.. just very happy laz.. hahz..
was that wat u all meant abt 31 August being a meaningful day..
if it was..
hahz..
thanks..
u all were great..
life rock...
rocking on...
wish all problems will be gone for ever...
now that i try to be happy every moment..
i am really happy...
den..
life with no fan naos is great..
i love it!...
heys..
later got superstar finals..
rmb watch k,,,,
hahaz..
dancing in the moonlight very nice..
very happy song...