horrible mood now..
supposely very happy der..
make me till dun wan eat dinner..
all pour away..
just purely unreasonable can?
why do u think i wan lie to her..
if she agrees to wat i say..
all she does is saying.. NO..

watched "herbie"..
nice show and funny..
was CUTE..
met pauline, huikuoon they all..
was kind of shock..
haiz..
(sorry xiao chipmunk..
but i am now in a horrible mood)
very difficult for me to not say it..
i hate life!..
why liddat..
stupid..
i hate being controlled..
i am not a puppet for u to control my actions..
i am a human!..
i HATE YOU..

thanks ci la..
but haiz..
stupid mood..
i HATE THIS..
i hate life living like this!



Done with physics..
just purely flipping thru it..
and in 15 mins..
i am done!..
dun really care...
fail den fail bahz..

sorry.. but i only tot of informing u..
my point wasn't to cause u pain..
if i did..
yes i noe i did..
in some sense..
i apologise..
but dun think so much abt it..
dun be too bothered over things that are not within our control..
they are just things/probs lying around..
just treat it in a positive manner..
and we can be a happier person..
hahaz.. sounds chim..
anyways..
just wan everybody to noe..
the importance of BEING HAPPY...

hahaz..
wah.. xiao chipmunk being kind of mysterious seh..
dunno wat she up to..
hahaz..
unpredictable der sia..
hahaz.. ermz..
no study mood sia..
dunno why..
i feel very very happy..
dunno why.. hahaz
hope tml wun fail physics..
i will be very grateful liaoz..
hahz..

wish xaio chipmunk good luck in tml njrc..
all the best!..





wah.. wat i can comment is blue..
sucks on you..
especially you..
mayb every colour sucks on u too..
why are u always appearing b4 me..
plz go away..
even in my dreams..
the one that appears is YOU..
stupid..
was considered a nightmare..
cos the sight of u makes me sick...

Same old thing...
but the good thing is..
mrs singh was on medical leave today..
she was sick..
TWO free periods!!!
spent it by listening to mp3..
and revising chem a little..
and DING-DONG..
it was over..
hahaz..

nothing much la..
haiya..
why now like this..
school becoming meaningless..
and very boring liaoz..

voice out all ur unhappiness..
dun keep it to urself..
being liddat..
u dun only torture urself..
but pple that care for u..
BE happy..

recently everybody so busy
and occupied..
plus the grougy mood..
hope soon evrybody will be very free..
den we can all lets play like b4 again...
be happy..
and joke and luf like last time..
things will be GREAT then...
i wish the day can come quicker..
i wish to be happy..
i wish boNe faster be happy..
i wish tml physics retest can be better..
i wish for everybody's happiness..


wah find this in wan chin's blog..
very nice...!!
"I finally awoke from the pretentious state. i realised the meaning of life: to be happy. to enjoy. nothing beats the world of fun and excitement. i found out that. no matter what happens, there will surely be someone there for me. my friends. my family. u are the best. "
this is then the right thinking..
everybody shud feel this way..
and BE HAPPY..
that's shud be the way..
u happy..
other pple also will HAPPY..

SO.. BE HAPPY is the issue here..!!

- big chipmunk pens down

wishing every teacher a HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY!










hmm..
recieved back: a maths
e maths..
chinese.. PAPERs..
actually was alright la..
but compared to the rest of my clasmates..
it was considered...
HORRIBLY.. TERRIBLE..
my class is just plain.. BRAINY..

was made to be quiet
and shut up during today's lesson..
horrible for me
cos i CAN'T TALK..
diaowz..

Being laugh or mock at isn't the matter..
i dun mind..
as long as u are seen happy..
laughing..
free from worries..
anything and everything..
willl be worthwhile..

After sch had SSP..
before that was playing dai di with mh and boNe..
all also i LOSE>
not fair...
and i had another new name..
"bird-bird"..
diaowz..
hahaz..

after that ate lunch in canteen..
den went 3e3 study chem..
cleared some doubts.
with the help of goRilla..
den listened to her mp3..
nice..
yi ge ren shen huo..
and yi shi de mei hao..

hehe..
recently..
never listen to piano much le..
dunno why..
but not so fan now liaoz..
hahaz..
mayb acting blur..
and dun think so much abt it..helpx..
hahz..


YOU.. stop being nonsensical
and criticise abt pple..
u are NOT fit to say others..
i noe i may not be good..
but u are no better..
so STOP it before,.
u..
yes u..
get it from me...


Okay..
later going to study for chem test..
tml der..
have kind of finished redox in sch..
so only nid study the chapter on metals..
den tml go sch den copy physics..
heex..

hahaz..
haiz..
is indeed a chim word..
quite profound also..
but making urself..
try not to say the word..
is difficult..
this word is also contagious..
once a person starts saying it..
the grp of pple will also start to say it..
so its betterr
to stop urself from saying it rather..
it reallie HELPss..

hahaz.. great that u made effort..
that's the way..
time will heal everything..
that scence wud soon be erased
everything will be well..
just give it some time....
dun worry..
no matter how diff the prob might be..
just rmb..
big chipmunk is here..
my ears are always open..
and I'll be right there
standing in the mist..
for u
god bless ..
hahz...

BIG chipmunk signing of..
cya..






hahaz..
ok yesterday went nora house..
they were supposed to do the total defence thingy..
while me and char was like doing...
wat were we doing?
i dunnno..
hahaz..
oh yeah..
playing a very lame game..
GUESS WHO..
hahaz.
in the end still play until like very fun liddat..
hahaz

oh ya.. had bo bo cha cha at nora's house..
hmm..like the jelly thingy..
but had to chew and chew..
mouth got rather tired..
leave nora's house at abt 7pm...

me, char, kex and grace went on bus 315..
i was sitting with char.
den kex and grace..
they were facing us..
was saying both of us look alike..
i dun think so..
of cos..
we dun look alike..
i am suppose to be a BIGGER version of her..
den suddenly linked to say that i look like a ...
CHIPMUNKS..
and so..
char was the small chipmunk..
while i am the BIG chipmunk...
DIAOWZ..

hahaz..
kexin had to go home earlier..
den me, grace, char went to EAT at mac..
my favourite PLACE..!!
had.. twister fries..
one word.. NICE..!

i really love u guys..
hahaz..
monkey in a HAPPY HAPPY mood..
hahaz..


OOh..very gan dong..
small chipmunk, u rock!
hahaz..
wah.. hahaz..
chipmunks rock!..
one for all, all for one..
CHIPMUNKS!
hahz





heys.. for ss today went comp. lab..
hadda share comp with zainul
cos reg 41 and 42 mah..
den using the teacher's table der..
ms tan was right beside..
and i was like..
eh michelle.."lend me ur wksht"
den i starting copying..
haha..
guess wat..
ya.. kanna scolded..
"how dare u copy right under my nose?
return the paper back!.."
hahaz..
den she was like " u dunno how to search for ans is it..?"
then she pointed out for me where to search for ans..
hahaz..
actually she also not that bad la..
hahahz..

sometimes..
being ignorant is a better choice..
if not bcos of u both..
i wud not be so fan anymore..

I do not wish to treat u all as subs..
i want to let u all noe..
u all are not subs..
but from wat i am doing now..
i think i am treating u all like one..
but i dun wish this to happen also..
but i really dun wan to lose 'em..
it's cos of u two..


but now..
after noeing..
i also happy la..
touched too..
at least i noe..
they cared..

ehs actually today also quite ok la..
nth much..
played bball a while lo..
den watched the rehearsal...
hmmx..
quite sian also..
hope tml can go out..
too sian at home.. later rot diaoz.. haha
eh grace, kex.. tml go out?
i wan!!..
please.. heehs





today had e maths and english test..
almost EVERY said it was easy..
but i dun think so..
hahhaz..
english.. ooh..
i am quite satisfied.. ha!

today's lesson was filled with laughter..
all that of hee-hee-hee-ha-ha-ha..
i find sitiing with michelle chia and sihui there..
very fun thou..
they make great friends.. hahz.
always got food also..
den they very funny der..
make lesson time more enjoyable for me..

Today after school went p.s..
shopped for mh present..
her b'dae tml..
"Happy birthday!"
hahz..
so malu..
jac ytd sms her to wish her happy b'dae liaoz..
bought her a handbag..dotz..
hahz..


u said you roughly understand...
but dun jump into conclusions first..
mayb is not wat u know of..
and i think wat u noe is incorrect..
cos i only noe the cause of the whole thing TODAY..
hahz..
den i noe liaoz..
today happy happy liaoz..
hehez..
previously all that was rubbish bah..
is i dunno the cause then any how crap..

i never give up on bball..
and the REASON is not 'em..
is me..
i made the choice!..
kae..?
haiyo..
maybe i changed..
haiz.. i dunno..
nvm.
dun wanna fan liaoz..
BE happy..

thanks..
overall.. i am really happy today..
tml chinese test.. jiayoux//





nobody seemed to know of my pressence
mayb its just a illusion
a umimportant
useless
thing..

i may seem ok
on the outside
but do u even care
whether i am alright
whether i am ok
in the inside?
plz stop asking ..
or else i shall explode on you..
ya.. the one i satrtin to hate now..

time seemed to pass so slowly now
every minute every second
where are y'all
the ones i noe of..
plz return..

today's physics and maths test was a disaster..
what happened?
i am no longer able to study properly..
to sit down and concentrate..
nvm..
its over..
no use brooding about it..
just when the progress report comes and..
"bang!"..
here comes the scoldings.. hahz

thanks for the day..
you said it feel "free"
i think so too..
nv had so long hours together for a long time..

after school.. went j8.. kfc..
sat down and studied for e maths..
ty and elaine did..
but i was doing hmwk..
and eating..
busily munching on the food bought..
the cheese fries..
hahaz.
finished e maths hmwk..
part of eng..
hahz..
haven studied e maths yet..
later bahz..

ok today. was fun.. rather..
it has since a long time
for me and ty to sit down and tok bahz..
and in fact studying together.,.
kaez..
"free".. was wat she said..
i aslo felt "free"..
no troubles and all that..
and the most important of all..
no pressure..
with ty.,

sometimes i really dunno wat to say.
so i kept quiet..
being quiet..
*whenever i listen to "piano"..
it's a signal of my pekcek-ness..
and i am listening to it,..very oftenly
so happy together..
hahz.. but am i really happy?
wat do u think...






paiseh.. slack alot.
so didn't blog.. hahaz..

just finish reading thru physics notes only..
dun care le fail bahz..
not the first time anyway...
ha!

for goodness sake..
stop asking me whether i belong to them..
i myself dun have an answer
am i or i am not..
i guess not..
beiing together was my option.
so i have no one to blame when i am not happy..

wahseh.. ytd for thhe first time ate "gao lak"
hahz.. ok la..
but if is hot then mayb is nicer?
ok nvm..
ermz..
today training was like.. halfway drizzle a bit
den coach tml going thai ma
so he mood good...
ask us all go field..
"let's play RUGBY!"
hahahz..
everybody ended up dirty..
the interesting part was singing how bao and amanda crash together..
and how they try their best to stop each other from getting the ball..
it was like a sumo fight!
ha...

dunno wats gone over me?
why has my bball skills bcum so lan..
nothing seems smooth in my life..
so rocky..
haiz..
my only wish- Be happy!..

wah.. now that tian guo de jie ti damn nice..
so touching..
i love it..
watched it for 2nd time le..
and the song all so nice..
but got this wicked sister..
so stupid..
chen jun//jingshu rocks!!
hahaz.. mus watch hoh
on channel u have show..
every mon and tues..
10pm -11pm..
hehes..

for a moment, i donno wat am i thinking..
maybe..
or perhaps..
i do not belong..
where am i suppose to be?





Saddened day..

haiz..
actually really dread life..
life going on like this is meaningless..
really feeling like toking to somebody..
but who can i turn to?
i really dunno..
i dunno who i can say it to..
not that i not trust u all..
bbut i dunno how to put it across..
mayb keeping it to myself is a better solution?
at least i am the only one that is fan..
[please smile, only your smile makes my smile real..' only your pressence make mine worthwhile]
[be happy always]

i wish that things cud be back like before..
that ttime.. we had lotts of fun..
everyday is all abt playing and fun..
being with u all was the thing i look forward to everyday..
i feel smth missing now..
a missing jigsaw puzzle mayb?
something isn't right..
i ain't happy at all!!

Even now..
my bball sucks..
shooting sucks..
stamina sucks..
speed sucks..
everything sucks!
haiz..
everything is in total mess now..

i really feel like going to the beach some day..
to relieve myself...
too much fan naos..
wish i cud put all these aside..
and be happy everyday..
i wished..
i really wished to be happy!!
god plz help me...


haiz..
now in comp. lab two..
having english lessons..
is so sianned..
but at least got air con..
but not very strong thou..
hahaz..
with nasi BRAni walking around..
but everybody here is zao fan..
all playing their own things
haiyo..
training later...
think maybe not using com. afterwards
will be too tired by then..

see...
i can see kexin and cher blogging also now..
hahaz..
gottcha..!
heehz..
bad ssia..
kae nvm
everybody is doing the same thing..
pan wei bo rocs!!
...
:))=


Hehex..
actually today quuite happy la..
after school..
ss test!.. that's disatrous!!
havoc.. i nv study on UN..
only managed to scribbled less than half a page
gosh.. sure fail!!
now listening to bu de bu ai..
nice song seh..
actually now find pan wei bo songs not bad sia..
hehhex..

after school, see them dance..
not bad sia..
very neat, then the moves also nice..
hope they can enter finals,
den perform on teachers day..
hahaz...
really ma, not bad..
after that actually only wan ask xinying wan go home a not,
den after that went shoot a few balls..
den in the end ended up playing..
when i went back class.. 6.30pm
they were gone...
went downstairs..
met ah lai monster!!
so suay... that makes my day..
quickly siam den go bus stop..
haiz..
too bad..
she caught up with the bus..
force a smile for her..
suay suay.. she stop at the same stop as me..
actually wan take 13 but see her also taking..
i walk home..
hahaz..
training tml..
jiayoux bahz..
you all jiayouz for dancing also...
good luck..


Ok. this will be my very first post for my brand new blog...
From this moment my blog is officially declared open..!
ok.. hehez

sian sian sian
dunno wat i am doing tml..
maybe watching them dance?
see bahz..
tml wil be ss test..
haven studied for it..
later bahz..
i like bu dde bu ai alot..
not say like pan wei bo la
is that girl sing in the song
make the song nice
so i like it..

blahz blahs..
see you all tml in school bahs..
cya..