hhaa..
right here..
i stand..

i want to thank everyone..
i din noe u all are so concern..
with so many days and nights..
we all seem to forget what that is most impt to us..
sometimes these reminders make us noe how fortunate we are..
and i wanna say..
"I AM VERY FORTUNATE!!"

thanks to all..

i know i am very xin fu..
because i have all of you..

the key is always present somewhere..
it is whether we are able to find it..
and in order to find it.
we must look hard for it..
and i am confident..
i am very near to finding it already..

i am alright!


no one is born to fit into somewhere,
it's the ability to adapt into that environment,
find the happiness in it,
and not just because you think that you dun fit
and you won't...

- adapted from someone



THERE'S A KEY TO EVERY DOOR
THERE'S A KEY TO EVERY LOCK
THERE'S A SOLUTION TO EVERYTHING.
or at least MOST of the things...


i guess nobody will understand my feeling at this moment..
so contridicting..
ah!!..

i feel out of place..
because of some words...
what he said really shoot me straight through my heart..
sometimes i ask myself..
do i really have what it takes to belong?

actualy wan tel you but i guess like u had heard loads from me?
so told bekah..
i feel that she will understand better..
but she hadda go out..
and went offline quite fast..
after talking out my feelings..
felt much better.

but now like become the same again..
but i guess there's nothing wrong with the team..
but its me..
its what i feel..


feeling quite sad lo.
but wat to do..
its me who cannot prove myself..
i am useless.
good for nothing...








lousy freak.
i hate myself for being me


went watch i not stupid too today..
with meihui, kexin and mooie..
ha..
i always look forward to watching the movie..
because heard so much good comments about it..
but actually after i come out of the theatre..
forget wat its all about..
but...
it sure do makes you cry..
and that's the purpose..
haha..
cry out...
guess i am a bit nuts..
but..
i guess this is the reason why i wan watch this movie..
hahha


i know i am not observant..
sorry eh..
haa..
but guess this is my nature?
ha..
which makes me..?
haha.

kk.
tml is friday.
24 feb..
our last training before the match on monday and tues..
jiayous man..
must get into semi and FINALS..
8 march k..?

tml wearing white..

see ya..


ha..
we win newtown 42-24..
one step closer yeah?
jiayous..
next match is nxt monday against cedar..
jiayous..
we can do it..

lessons were same la..
everything as usual..
sian lo..
haha..

hope tml can watch movie..
praying hard...
haha..

was quite amused by kexin's "prawn"
guessing game..
haha..
showed kellie, eunice, jac, clar..
but they were like..
CLUELESS ..
hahha..
funny..

ADRIANO ROCKS..
please jiayous..
on 6 MARCH!
choose a song that suits u..
and go go go all the way!!

C.I rocks ah!!..
jiayous..
although like no time is like very little..
but i believe..
if there is a will, there is a way..
so there wud be time some day..
and hope it will come sooner!!

and last of all..
B'GIRlS 06 rocks!!

and i must say the whole bball team rocks..
especially the sec2s..
thanks..

one team, 12 people, 1 dream!


omg..
tml is monday again..
which means campus superstar!!

ah..
adriano must get through eh..
please!!
pray pray pray..

i miss c.i
haa..
i mean the going out part and toking part..
see everyday yeah..
but is like not enough time to like tok abt everything under the sun..
those times...
sit in the canteen from 2 tok till 6 plus...
but now..
no time at all..

and bball..
wednesday is match against newtown..
jiayous..
training tml!!..
jiayous..
WE SHALL BEAT THEM!!



i love adriano forever..


takeemdown/=
oneteam. twelveperson. one dream.
b'girls o6 jiayous!


lazy to blog eh..
er..
well donw ytd..
win yuying by 43- 20..


today is valentine's day..
although not bad la..
got flowers.. alot food also..
but it cant cover my sadness..

i just cant believe it..
adriano is out!!
ah..
cried lo..
thinking of it..
also feel like crying..
very sad..
siAN!!..
why must it be so....
UNFAIR!!..


hias..
but nv give up..
still have revival..
but haish..
nvm
jiayous!!

thanks for all who has make my day better today..
C.I, my class pple.. bball de..
thanks thanks


counting down..
4 more days..
to 13 feb..
ahahhaa..
wan to wish wenna a very happy birthday in advance..
haha..
hope ur birthday luck will help adriano
advance to the next round..
which he obviously would..
hahah..

==========================

B'GIRLS
actually i dunno wat to say..
but i guess everyone respects our captain..
and actually i feel she no wrong la..
but mayb its the misuderstanding btw coach and her?
dunno la..
mayb the problem not say we can solve by talking together..
mayb by talking..
we can noe more things abt each other...
but i guess this problem is not by talking jui can solve de bahs..


we all noe that we all have expectations for ourselves..
when we can't reach it..
we will be disappointed abt it.
mayb ty or even eunice might also be seen not happy sometimes..
but is cos of disappointments?
guess so..
however its also inevitable that we will also feel more stressful once we see others being stress..
because see others being so stress..
we will also demand ourselves to do better cos we dun wan to see our teammates become disappointed.
but you see it's sort of a vicious cycle..
den liddat everybody stress..
den the happiness of playing bball is gone..

being a lousy player..
i also wan play well..
but sometimes is just our of control?
hmms..
still got alot to say..
but thinks its never ending bahs..

b'girls jiayous ah!!






rather happy yeah?
haha..
cos 8310 was here..
he was...
ah!!..
adriano you rocks la.
i will support you forever and forever..
adriano..
get well soon..
dun sleep so late..
tml have to go school yeah..
later late agains..


haish.
i miss adriano.
he never came online today.
what was he doing..
waiting and waiting..
mayb too busy?..

wah CSS very united lor..
sounds so fun when reading ther blog saying they go to each others house to bai nian..
very xian mu..
i wished i was one of them man..
den can see him at least once a week ba..
but if i am..
mayb i wun like adriano le bah?..
but through all these competitions..
this is how really good frens are made..
there's a revival soon..
hope sherm and sheena comes back..
dunno la..

hope adriano gets through 13 feb..
i 'll be very happy..
and the tickets is most probably adriano give out...
wow..
but think must go earlier..
den he will be free..
ah..
guess all my dreams are only dreams..
why become so crazy over such a thing?
i dunno..
but haiya..

<3 derrick. ADRIANO <3

guess think too much..
and becoming too flower eat is not good?
one word to describe me now..
SAD..
guess i am becoming mad bahz..


Adriano just rock can!!..
I LOVE ADRIANO!!


ADRIANO. ADRIANO. ADRIANO.

fantasing in progress.
wondering whther adriano will accept my testimonial..
wondering..
whether he will add me as a friend..
wondering whether he will add me on msn messenger..
wondering whether he remembers..
ah..
adriano huang jun hui..
i love you..
i will support you..
jiayous!!!

ADRIANO. ADRIANO. ADRIANO. ADRIANO.