just felt like blogging early in this morning . seriously my mood is quite low . it just can't make me forget how badly i have played for the past two days during the matches . air balls and more air balls . where are the usual chops and why have i stop to qie now . why . its like so near to the tournament . and now i start to fear . fear what exactly . just go in and play my game . run . qie. defend. shoot. i cant even play well . the opponents can't possibly eat me up can they . so what is it that is stopping me . stopping me from allowing me to take my shots . CONFIDENCE . i got it all lost . its gone . and i also found out that now my shooting has a higher angle . mus try to shoot like before . i want . i want to get into team . i wanna play well . can you just gimme another chance . another chance to prove that i can do it . mayb till bedok green that match . during this few days . i will find back whatever i need . i dun wanna be stop on tues . tues u shal decide one member to be kick out . i . i dun wanna be the one . 2 months wasted just like that . i dun wan!!
sorry team . i will erase this few days of memories . and be back to myself . so please gimme some time . i wan to play well . but actually just wanna say . good game ytd . esp kellie and nisa .

now i am really scared . free jersey . i dun wan . all of us train hard . not bcos of the jersey . but for a place in the team . CONFIDENCE ah CONFIDENCE . i am on my way to look for you . so please dun wanna too far off . cos i am afraid that i cant find you on time . i can't give up . i told myself that . daring to play . dare to shoot . go on court and have fun . dun be so tense . i can do it . so believe in myself . i can do more than this . pls .buck up .