haiya..
actually i really wan to put my heart into bball..
but i dunnoo...
what choice shud i make..
ok..
bball trainings are tiring..
VERY..
and being a lazy person...
running to me is a chore..
and i do not have much stamina and speed..
this is the thing which i really hate..
sometimes..
i really wished i have the speed and stamina..
if i had all these..
i will like bball...
bcos everything will not going to be of an problem to me liaoz..
haiz..
but i hope i can play nxt yr..
i wan play in the team..
but how much endurance do i have..?
my dream is always to play in the sports hall..
after going to tpy sports hall..
i have much thoughts..
shud i work hard for it?
but wat if all my hard work goes into the drain..
den i'll be very disappointed..
i experience it before..
it was really sad..
but at least that time i didn't really work hard for it..
but even though it was liddat..
i was still very sad at that time..

also i wan some extra time to be with em..
but if i wan improve..
everyday i must stay back to practise..
and improve..
and reach my goal..
i dunno..

playing in a sports hall..
with so much pple to support..
has always been my dream..
do i wan it to continue being a dream..
or i wan it to turn into reality..

sometimes i really feel dui bu qi to coach..
he treat us so nice..
but i still sometimes dun like training..
but i am just tired..
training is really tough..
to me..
sometimes.. i really wanna work hard..
but i dunno..

at the back of my mind..
there is a pulling force..
a force to keep me from advancing..
a force that make me wanna back out..
plz gimme an answer...
wat shud i do..
to back out..?
to advance..
but i really hope to make my dream come to reality..
however..
this pulling force seems so strong..
that it is pulling me backwards....