Saddened day..

haiz..
actually really dread life..
life going on like this is meaningless..
really feeling like toking to somebody..
but who can i turn to?
i really dunno..
i dunno who i can say it to..
not that i not trust u all..
bbut i dunno how to put it across..
mayb keeping it to myself is a better solution?
at least i am the only one that is fan..
[please smile, only your smile makes my smile real..' only your pressence make mine worthwhile]
[be happy always]

i wish that things cud be back like before..
that ttime.. we had lotts of fun..
everyday is all abt playing and fun..
being with u all was the thing i look forward to everyday..
i feel smth missing now..
a missing jigsaw puzzle mayb?
something isn't right..
i ain't happy at all!!

Even now..
my bball sucks..
shooting sucks..
stamina sucks..
speed sucks..
everything sucks!
haiz..
everything is in total mess now..

i really feel like going to the beach some day..
to relieve myself...
too much fan naos..
wish i cud put all these aside..
and be happy everyday..
i wished..
i really wished to be happy!!
god plz help me...