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Tuesday, July 10, 2007 Y 6:52 AM

Seriously, i think i can't take it anymore!

expectations of me from ms tang, coach and everyone else is like a mountain,

its really pressing me hard.

they keep saying i've the best qualities and i've a big advantage as a forward.

i knw i'm not good enough,

i knw i seriously need to improve.

i knw all that.

but there's a limit,

every match i tell myself somethings that i wish to improve and see..

and i will try my best to accomplish all that.

and to be truthful, i did see myself doing some of the things which i expect of myself.

in the aljunied match, i seriously gave my best.

after that i cried, bcos i knw i have given my all, but i've still not meet coach or anyone's expectations.

even when i did my best, its still not gd enough.

and the seniors also think we played horribly too.

over the 6 matches in youth cup, i think i've improve.

but okay, i knw its not enough.

you all always say bao is the only one running for fast breaks.

is it as though i didn't run? i did.

haish, but its just that i'm not fast enough. i knw that. i am slow.

you all said that if the opponent defend bao very well and don't let her get the ball, we will be doom.

I know, i know

i know bao is doing alot of things on court.

but i'm trying very hard alrdy!

substantiate pressure is good for improving, but not this.

i'm not blaming anyone, its me that thinks alot.

But with coach, ms tang and ms yau always saying the same thing.

and seeing bao and the rest trying so hard..

i still cant meet up to expectations.

it becomes so presurising to me that seriously during today's match i dun dare to do anything.

i'm afraid of making mistakes.

i'm afraid what i do will be not gd enough.

don't worry peeps, i'm alright

i will be fine soon

i will still try my best to improve.

but RAH!!!!!!!

i just need some rest.

i will try my best.

thanks for believing in me.

i will be yong gan.

ROARRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!

sheryl, i hope you are fine too.

and baoxian too.

BBGT JIAYOUS!