shall described what I have intended to post briefly. cos it actually disappeared unknowingly, while I took an hour or so to complete the post. ok, nvm. It’s alright. I have been so suay this few days that I dunno how I can describe. ok ya. I wanted to say out why I had a bad mood this few days. It all started on sunday after 5pm. you noe its like, if you try to run away or shake off somebody. Normally it means, that the person you are trying to shake off is someone that you dislike or you hate. I know you need some personal space and rest time. I think you were unable to put it across to us that you do not wish us to be there. But if you said, we would have gone away. I thought thru what I will do if someone I idolized said the most disliked fan is me. Although I know the truth of that, but you see, running away to me seemed to be equal to referring that we are irritating and blablabla. That’s why I have the thought of escaping. And remain invisible. That’s why I am uncertain about sat. now is like sort of a relieve to me cos sat we aren’t able to get in. and I will not see him. Ok, I dunno why this has been bothering me so much. Normally anything I sleep le jui will forget liaoz, but this I can’t. it just kept flashing back into my mind, about the incident. And I noe you are tired and your mood hadn’t been the best of the days either. I not blaming anybody or what lar, but I am like just saying what I have been thinking for the past days.


And ya, today was one of my worse days since I’ve been constantly repeatedly asked myself abt the flashback. I was almost on the verge of shouting out. I always appeared happy and always joking in school. But do you noe, I hated school. I hated school so much. Everyday to school is so tired. And I dun think I learn and get anything out of the lessons I get each day. And plus ssp everyday. To like about 4 plus. With all my time drained out. I can’t even have time to chat with my frens, to even play my fav sport with my best team mates. Ya, I sleep early at 10pm, that’s very early I guess to you all, but I sacrifice my time for tv and computer games for that. I go home early to complete my hmwk fast so I can watch some tv or to come here and blog stuffs like this. Others sleep like abt 12 or even later. But you all watched tv right? I just merely sleep instead of watch it. i think i abit haywires le. paiseh. this is not me. i swear. from, watch tv part. haha.


Ok I dunno why I like say such stuffs, sounded like I am blaming the world. Ok but then something today suddenly triggered all my anger and made me broke apart. Not as in cry. But I was on the verge of. Ha, I blew!. F* whoever that did that. wah lao, did i ever offend anyone?And I hate curry chicken even more now. stupid ass. i just bleached my shirt not long ago can. and stop wasting food la. dumb ass.


however actually it was good la. i provided me the spark to show all my anger and frustrations that i have been keeping so long. and now i feel better. but poor tricia and grace bahs.. hahahhahs.!! but i am still confused.


i am invisible. i want to stay invisible, because i dun wan to face you. my mind dunwan go. but bekah say wan go. and the soul inside me also wan go so i go bah. and mayb also won't see you, so shud be alright. i just need somebody to knock some sense into me and to have the right thinking. i dunno what i talking. so contridicting! i am mad! and i am sure have a serious mood swing this few days.


SAVE ME!